Just watched an amazing sermon on the website of my old church!  Really miss it!  It's been hard to find a church here that I just "click" with!  On another note.....the perils of divorce!  My baby girl came home yesterday after being gone for 4 days!  I never ask detailed questions about her visit, just things like "did you have fun?"  "what did you do fun?" and "did you see Kenlie?" (her BFF)  It always seems after a few hours we talk and she tells me things about her dad, ect.  Most things are common things about him and his girlfriend/roommate, things he may have bought or just general info.  This time she told me something I didn't like or find appropriate!!!  I tried not to make a big deal out of it, hoping she would soon forget (that is an advantage at that age).  As I carried on through the evening, I thought to myself "how do I handle this?"  "do I say anything?"  Knowing the personality of my Ex, it's better left unsaid!  One thing my lawyer told me was as bad as you want to, you can't parent from here!  Meaning, I have to let him parent her when she's there!!  It's a hard thing to get used to!!  It drives me crazy not knowing where she is and what she is doing!  THAT is the hardest part!!!  And I wish I could say it gets easier, but it doesn't!!!  The sermon I watched was about prayer and how to pray.  I'm no expert, but I never asked for anything, except to watch over her while she is away from me, and then I put all my doubts, the things in life that I don't understand and any fears in His hands!!!!  When the thoughts of divorce came about and I knew I was unhappy, I prayed everyday and simply prayed "Father, I don't know what to do, where to go or what I'm going to do when I get there, but I'm putting all this in Your hands.  You know what is best for me and my baby girl and I trust you.  Please show me the way and I will follow, Amen"  That simple!!!  I took life one day at a time, whatever was to happen was happening for a reason, good or bad!!!  And I found myself moving forward one day at a time!!  I know there is a reason I'm in East TX now, living where I am and doing what I do.  I miss Fort Worth deeply, but I have been shown a million reason to stay right where I am.  Again, I'm no preacher, just sharing how faith will show you the way!!!  If you just let it!!!!