OH....I forgot I had this blog! :?  Not really!  The truth is, my mind has been going around in circles and I didn't want to confuse you!!!  ( I have been :P)   After all the circling, I find my self tired and at a standstill in life!  I guess when I was married I never put much thought into "what happens next?"  You just go through life and do what married people do!  I never thought about what happens when your divorced!  I don't think you really think about those things when you DO get married, like "when this is over, I'm going to............."  Finding myself as a single mom, that never finished her career, in a new town with limited friends and job opportunities was NEVER a thought, BUT that is where I am!  I spent a lot of time praying before divorce became a reality.  Where do I go, what do I do?  And it came around so fast, it's hard to believe it's been a year ago!  I found, what I thought would be a good job, a great place to live and I have had a wonderful man in my life for 8 mths now....but I struggle raising an 8 yr old by myself!  Don't get me wrong, if it wasn't for my mom helping me with my daughter, I don't know what I would have done!  I know I want more out of life than where I am now, I thought I could be content with the way things are, NOT!  So my first step, is to pray and look to God for my purpose.  I have decided to go back to school and finish my degree!!!  I want to be able to provide for my daughter a great life and opportunities as she grows older!  I want to be proud of myself and hold my head up high when I walk into a room.....feel like a winner!!!!  I want to walk toward the future with a smile on my face, instead of waking up everyday wondering what brick is going to hit me today!  Now I question...Is East Tx where I need to be?  Do I sign another years lease on the house I'm in?  Do I invest in a local college or seek other avenues???  So, I will continue to pray and let God show me where I need to be!

WOW!!!  What a Monday this Tuesday has been!!!  After a great weekend with friends and plenty of sleep last night, I was ready for a great day!!!!!  Did some thinking and soul searching, came up with a game plan and some goals and BAM!!!!!!!!!!  I've had bricks thrown at me all day!!!!!!!  I think maybe I should take myself STRAIGHT home, go to bed and restart tomorrow!!!
     I feel like my life is at a stand still or maybe I'm still dragging the past around with me!  All I know is things have got to change, I have to move forward!  My last blog was about putting "me" first and I haven't had much success in that so far!  I don't have a clue where I'm going or what I'm doing!  So what do I do when I get to this place in life?  I kneel and pray, ask for direction and trust in him to get me there!!!  I know there is a better life for me and Tay, I just have to find it, one day at a time!